.Wednesday, November 19, 2008 ' 10:23 PM
ayul
At times i like to wonder about things that had past, just happen or things that's going to happen. Wondering about all these things make me think deeper about it.
I sometimes wonder why there are things that i want it to happen to me but it doesn't. What would happen now if the things did happened. Would it be a good thing or a bad thing? When i probe into it a bit deeper, i know why these things did not or did happen. Somehow, it's for my own good. It's like a blessing in disguise. Though i wished and prayed and hoped so hard for it to happen but it didn't because there's a reason behind it. But there are things that i wish i could change.
Now, in the present world, i have to always think of what i should do next. I just couldn't sit around and leave the day as it is. I did my own reflection for the day. Whether the day goes as i want or is there anything that i should take note of. And i'm just stress living in the present world.
The future is still dark for me. I thought after i've graduated, there will be a shining light in front of me but somehow it fades to black. I don't know what the future holds for me. I want to think and plan for my future, but i just don't know where to start. Study, marriage, family, finance... *sIgh* I really need help.
