.Wednesday, February 15, 2006 ' 9:41 PM
ayul
Today, 15th of Feb, is Total Defence Day. Yesterday, 14th of Feb, is Valentine's Day. Or some of u call it Friendship Day. Though i dun celebrate it (either one), it must b a nice day 2 spend tym wif ut love one n frens. But unfortunately for me, i did neither. I dun meet up wif Dear, or spend tym wif my frens or family. Juz sit at hm n pray somebody will call me and offer me a job. But heck no... Nobody call... Back in sec sch days, i always look forward for 14th Feb, coz we celebrate Friendship Day in sch. I always make a pt to give my frens something, let it b something i did on myself or juz some chocolates. Nice to hear my frens r havin fun on dat day dis yr...
My father had not talked to me for almost a wk. I dunno wat's the reason is. Every nyt, i cry to myself, thinkin dat nobody care n love me anymore. Cry n cry n cry... Dunno for how long dis cold war between me n father gonna end. Mayb it's bcoz i still did not have a job but dat is not a gd reason to not to talk to me. But i always thought back of wat my pri 6 teacher told me. She said, dun think so bad of ur situation coz out there, there r ppl who had worse probs den me. N it's true i guess. My bro told me dat one of his fren's mum passed away bcoz of stomach cancer. n another fren of his, had to b separated fr is younger bro n mum coz his parents r divorcin. So there...there r ppl who had lot more probs den me n i shouldnt give up.
Mum is werkin at Polar puff n pastries at Airport. She said she still prefer her old job but she cant juz quit. She is in trainin now. So cute lah my mum in her uniform.
In life, somethings r better left unsaid. Mayb it's better to keep it to urself den to tell ppl. But sometyms u cant help it but to tell someone. For me, i juz tell it to Dear coz he will tell me dat everythings gonna b alryt n i shld not worry abt it anymore. So swt of him...
Dunno wat im crappin abt... So i better shuddup...
