.Wednesday, January 11, 2006 ' 4:42 PM
ayul
I dunno wat i want in my life. I feel so, so empty inside. I juz realised dat i'm enterin adulthood way too fast den my frens who r still schoolin. The diff between us??? My frens need to worry abt their studies, they need to worry abt exams, worry abt not passin n not gettin their cert. Me...i need to worry abt not gettin a job, need to worry abt my finacial status, need to worry abt puttin food on the table for my family, need to worry abt how much savings i have in my banks, need to worry abt how i can help my family. So much worry dat i have, i scared i grow white hairs faster. *dOuble sIgh* Is dis the consequences for takin a shortcut in life? Mayb... Oh God...Give me strength to live on... Help me overcome all dis...
Despite all these, i'm happy wif my love life now. Did lots n lots of thinkin. I can wish n hope n pray for him to return. I can wish n hope n pray dat we will b together someday. I can wish n hope n pray dat he will come back lookin 4 me n said he loves me. But i'm guessin it wont happen. Mayb not now... mayb in 10 yrs tym or so. But i shld cherish the person i'm wif now. He's the one who's always there 4 me. He's the one who cares 4 me. He did so much things for me. I'm lovin him...always. Till fate break us up...
