.Tuesday, September 20, 2005 ' 6:06 PM
ayul
I wasnt my usual self lately but wat the hell. Ppl dun care aniwae. They always think abt themself. It's always 'THEM! THEM! THEM!'. I've always want to tell ppl abt my probs but den i choose not to. Y? Coz i dunno of their probs so y shld i tell them abt mine. Even if they have they choose to tell other ppl. Remind me again not to tell ppl abt mine k? It's better to keep to myself. Everybody need some attention but some ppl have a great need of it. They want attention everytym. Let me tell u dis, i dun want to give a lot of attention coz u'r gonna ask for more. I noe perfectly well dat i have changed. U noe y? Becoz of u dat's y. U r not stupid. U r an intellectual person but u choose to think and act stupidly. I have to explain myself over and over again but u still wont understand. Wen i drop a hint, u still cant get it. I tell u straight to the point, but u beat ard the bush. WTF!!! Tell me again, y am i still wif u?? I had given u a second chance twice but u take it for granted. If i were to ask u dat i want to do it for the second tym, dun stop me. I try to love u again. I try to show u more care. But u take it for granted. Yea...i'm treatin u lyk a toy now. N u treatin me lyk i'm some kind of slave, who have to give in to ur demand. I have nvr asked anything fr u for the past 5 yrs except for u to change. But u had been askin more and more fr me everyday. My frens told me to give a second chance. She told me i am being selfish. Bcoz she is my best fren, i heed her advice. Wen i think again abt wat she call me, a selfish, i think u deserve dat more den i do. U shld had let me go a long tym ago. But bcoz u want me to urself, u still hold on to me. Wen we juz started, i always tot u were understanding but i was wrong. U were forcin me wen i dun wan to do something. Do u lyk it if i force u??? Of coz u will say, "For u, i will do anything." Bullshit! There's more for me to write but i dun want to go on. Thanx aniwae....
