.Sunday, May 29, 2005 ' 5:27 PM
ayul
I'm emotionally hurt
Emotionally scared
Emotionally sad
Emotionally unstable
I'm cryin my heart out
Crackin my head
Searchin my soul
For the real answer
Do I want it or do i not?
Can I bear with it or can't I?
Do I have the guts to do it or do I not have?
The pain in my heart, do you really know?
Everyday I'm thinkin about it
Tossin and turnin in bed
Lack of concentration at work
Mistakes in everything I do
I'm twisted 'coz
One side of me tellin me that i need to move on
The other side I wanna break down and cry
I'm confused as what I should do
Heartbreakin as it may seem
But you gotta understand
The feelins that I once had for you
Lost...in the midst of the time
I'm willin to give you a second chance
But I'm scared it will happen again
I don't want to be a heartbreaker
I don't want to be a bad girl
Deceivin you, I should not
Leavin you, I could not
Being selfish, I must stop
Oh God! Help me please!!!!!
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Another poem dat i wrote while waitin for my shift. Taken me about half and hour to write it out. Based on a true account. I'm gettin sick of all dis. If only i could turn back the time and all of dis will nvr happen. I dunno wat else to do. My frens have help me alot. They give me their views, their advice, etc... But i cant do it! I'm feelin helpless. Wat must i do? Wat must i really do??
